Graduation

A LOT!! has happened over the past week and a half and I have a lot of catching up to do, but first I'll just talk about graduation and go from there.

It feels weird to say that I'm officially a college graduate. I think first it feels weird because although I knew this day would eventually come I never really pictured what I would actually be doing after college. Of course I pictured my life as blissfully happy and all that jazz, but I guess I never thought about what it is that I would be doing. I mean I knew that I would most likely be a full-time stay-at-home mom, but I never really thought past that point (I'll get into that more later..).

Second I think that it feels weird because at this point I can't really do anything with my degree. I've always considered myself a very practical person so when we came to BYU and I changed my major to a fairly impractical BA (no offense to my fellow BA's out there) in Anthropology I was quite surprised with myself. I love Love! my degree and feel like I learned so much about how the world works and how I can best work in it...if that makes sense...=)...But in all honesty with a BA in Anthropology not a whole lot of job options open up to me. I'm sure there are jobs that I haven't really thought of that an Anthropology degree would work for, but at this point I feel just as armed with job getting abilities as I did when I graduated from high school. The only difference now is that (gasp!!) I'm several thousand dollars in debt..yes we did take out student loans and are so glad we did because we have a beautiful son because we were willing to ask Uncle Sam for some assistance. All I'm saying is that now I have a 4 year degree, but it doesn't really mean I have any certain job that I am now qualified for, if I was even job seeking in the first place and that feels strange.

Anyway, I know this is a really strange post and it doesn't exactly resolve anything even though I was hoping that in the end something would eventually 'click'. I guess all I'm saying is that I"m officially a college graduate, which is super exciting, but I"m having a hard time being excited because I guess I thought I would feel different or something...?

Maybe it just feels a little anti-climatic to have graduated from college, but I didn't get any great job, I just stay home with Jackson. I'm not sure what it is, but it is weird. =) I thought I would feel this great sense of accomplishment after graduating, but I don't